Last night, Caffrey moved from our room into his own. There were many times before last night that we intended to move him to his own room but I continually found reasons to postpone the inevitable. I know every mother finds herself struggling with different aspects of her child's growing up and I found that this one was one of mine. I'm sure there will be other points of transition that I struggle with concerning Caffrey, and I know I'm not alone in this but that did not bring comfort last night.
As we were nearing bedtime I found myself in our living room, in the rocking chair, cuddling my sweet boy as we read our bedtime Bible story, as is our normal routine. I finished the story, set the Bible aside and just held Caffrey. And I prayed. I knew that my worry was wrong and unnecessary and so I asked the Lord for peace. Even as I prayed, anxiety would rise up and my heart would race but I continued to pass it on to the Lord. We stayed like that for a while and when it was time to lay Caffrey down in his own room I was able to do so in confidence. Confident that I could trust God. Confident that He can care for Caffrey better than I can and confident that He would help Matt and I hear Caffrey if he needed us. And the night went really well. I woke up this morning so thankful in my heart that I can trust the Lord.
I know more transitions will come and I'm sure there will be many that I find difficult but I am thankful that the Lord is teaching me to trust Him with Caffrey's life now. It brings peace that I don't think could come from any other source.
I am curious moms: what did you find difficult in this first year? One thing in particular? Many things? How did you work through them?
Speaking of Caffrey, here he is 5 months and all.
(Photography has been my first Return to Creativity project and do I have a long way to go...
More on that later.)
Happy day to you!